I went by that old house yesterday
I didn't even know what to say
Engulfed in white paint and the light blue shutters
Makes me recollect on how we used to be together
I sat on the bench just to have a cold thought
And remembered us talkin late round this empty lot
Makes me think, was it just a dream?
I still recall how cute your face looked when you glanced at me
One whole year, how many beers?
Does it take to replace all these internal tears?
I miss the joy of thinkin someone really fuckin cared
It's hard to grasp, the fact that you're not even here
Gotta get up, took a walk through the grass
Just to pass, that old tree where you sat by me and had those laughs
It's so sad, I can still hear you now
I frown at the fact I simply just don't think of you now
Hook:
It's hard to forget, these nights that I've spent
Just tryin hard to figure out what love really meant
But sometimes you gotta grow up and I look back now
And all I can see is your face when I pass that old house
I remember that day when you first came to move in
And I was happy, you were only a block from where I lived
That summer I looked forward to the stuff we could do
But who knew? Those days of deep conversations were through
You were more concerned about bein' the popular girl
And I was more concerned about my sole purpose in this world
I didn't wanna lose you, and I was still young too
I didn't get the fact you had different interests too
I got so tired of simply gettin sympathy
So tired of always talkin bout the problems with me
You changed, and I was still the same distressed kid
The same guy who's talent was to write serious shit
About serious things, still don't really know what they mean
You probably still don't understand how I got so fuckin mean
But it's just me, and are you still you?
Cuz it's all I think of, when I pass that old house through
Hook
It's hard to even look back at it all
So many bitter feelings and problems now they seem so small
Now it starts to come to me so vividly
I can see, the night you got on that dude right in front of me
I tried to be a man, tried to hide the hurt
But the image of you kissin him made me feel worse
It wasn't even just about a bitch girl
It was the first time I really felt so worthless in this world
If i could choose to take it back, I wouldn't if I could
It taught me some life lessons, now well understood
Emotions floatin', must be sorted out within
And I will never be another tool to get fucked with
You said hi to me in the hallway yesterday
And I didn't even have a clue what to say
The beauty of your face, made me think about it now
And I don't miss you one bit when I pass your old house